Nine months…and today… since you’ve been gone ~ just doesn’t even seem real….
Seriously…It’s like a magic trick…only this time… the joke is on me…which happens to feel more like a punishment.
As I ponder this thought…I can’t help wonder if you were even for real….or….if any of this life is for real…. for that matter? Were you truly here and a part of my life…my best friend…my rock…my designated soulmate….or were all the treasured memories…..just a figment of my imagination?……only to vanish and vaporize into mid air?
Good grief! How can it be that one Soul moves thru space and time… making such an impact on the rest of us… until one final heart beat. One last breath…all in contribution…. to help store up vital breath for the rest of us depending on this gift you left behind…. ~ Why did you have to leave? …and where have you gone?
As I drive down the freeway questioning this reality…A Shamrock Farms Milk truck crosses into my lane…right in front of me…~ these trucks have always represented my dad since his death on St. Patrick’s day…7 years ago…and…low and behold ..in that moment…wondering if Dean really walked the earth for real.. ….I look up and see three words….painted in bold letters across the back of the truck……REAL. …followed by the word FRESH. …followed by the word IDEAS.
Just…as we are all left to endure our own states of matter…which is never destroyed…I realize the Universe didn’t take you away…it just moved you…~ into a different form….~ a different state of matter…~ If true….then … I’m still solid….you are simply now vapor~…real as real gets…forever in my heart~❤
But why?…~…God why? …and what is it…you want from me now…that couldn’t be accomplished with Dean still here???..after all Dean Blixt didn’t take up much space in solid form!?…and just as I asked this question…in that very instant it was answered…..~ I heard whispered words spoke across my mind… that said…….”Keep Listening”…
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